In which Jonny might explode.

I am feeling rather overwhelmed lately, and I’m really dying to go home. Dying of course is a stretch of the imagination; however, I’m not entirely sure how much of one. Days are so much longer when they start at six o’clock in the morning and don’t end until after midnight- consecutively. School, work, rehearsals, practicums- they’re all adding up in one ugly beast of a burden. And it’s only just barely midterm!

My rehearsals, though they run back-to-back all evening, are coming along. The Crucible which opened next week, has been one of the most taxing rehearsal periods with which I’ve been involved. Not to say I’ve been annoyed with difficulty, but rather, I enjoy the feeling of hard work when it pays off in the end. I can safely say that this is will go into my memory as one of my proudest roles.

Once I make it through the run of The Crucible, I’m hoping for clearer schedules. However, when the closes, I begin rehearsals for the ballet, and the other dance show that I’m in doesn’t end until November. Oh me. Oh my.

Also, as I previously stated, I want to go home, and take a break. Hell, it doesn’t have to be home. I just want to go somewhere- out of this town, where I can breathe and recoup any pieces of sanity that I may have floating around in me. Fall break, after GTC, I’ll be heading home for Savannah; also, I have a tentative trip planned to NYC over Christmas break.

The unforunate side to the story is that, in all honesty, I shouldn’t be traveling anyway- save home- because I’m trying to save my pennies in order to support whatever endeavor I find myself in this summer. Frankly, though, I’ve been a complete flop. I’m totally not on top of my game at all, in terms of preparing myself in a meaninful way for the summer. I did decide, though, to go through Job Cotact at SETC, providing that it does not conflict with my casting assistantship at the conference.

But I don’t want to talk about my life, or my future anymore– well, until I need to.

I just want to go home and take a well-deserved nap.